Well, today was the Super Bowl and of course being a Patriots fan it didn't matter who one but I would have preferred the Broncos especially after this crazy week of Sherman issues. I cooked, I cleaned, I created, and as you notice I is before it all. It will be heaven to downsize in a little over a year and don't have all this space I just do not need. I must say, it has been a very unproductive weekend but a fun one with the exception of drinking more than I have in years. I do believe I have accomplished a bottle of Vodka and Coconut Rum this weekend. But tomorrow starts my journey. More a few paragraphs down.
Today I watch a video of a 10 year old that talked about How to Find Your Spark. What an amazing young woman to be so insightful at her age. I giggled a bit because I started writing this blog to find my spark. Half my life is over and the beginning of the rest of my life is now. In this second half what is it that I want to do, to change in my world that will ensure that when I die and prepare for my journey to my next life, I have accomplished something for our world. Something that is consuming me but has yet to be released. I hope while writing these blogs, I will find that.
Well, yet again I am behind in my class work but again tomorrow starts the new changes in my life. I have new rules and need to type faster because they are going to start earlier in the day. I have a 5-7 minute persuasive speech on ethics and politics. My favorite. After watching this ten year old, I have found a new technique and am excited to try this Wednesday night.
I haven't even looked at the online classes but starting tomorrow they each get one hour of my time. I will succeed in completing these.
Again my lean belt yellow will be started tomorrow. One hour each day.
3 February 2014 is the start of my short term goal which will be complete in May. I am enlisting the help of my new friend Closer. I am very excited with this journey I am taking. It is very personal and I truly believe with his help I will succeed. My reason for this goal may not really be healthy but it is human nature. I want to complete something because I can now that I am on my own. I want people to see that. Especially the ones that held me back. I just want to see the reaction. I do not blame them 100 percent for I am my own individual and responsible for my decisions but a woman can get lost in the gender role for the time being until if they are lucky enough, they are set free.
There is no short story tonight. I have a void inside of me and I am not sure what it is. It is very dark and black and a little scary. Maybe it is a thought of another failure, I am not sure but what I do know and I do hope is that through this journey of mine, I hope for it to go away or present itself so that I can change what it feels. March is the mid mark of my short term goal and the next goal will be presented. It is a longer goal but one that needs to be thought out for when my short term goal is done so that I can start with this next medium one. I am seeing ideas and I just know they will all come together when the time comes.
I have found from now on, I will be carrying a small journal and pencil with me everywhere I go. Ideas keep popping in my head and that is what this section is for. I will transfer them here and add some notes. Hopefully they will become something down the road.
Well, this is the end of my day. I had my first mini super bowl party ever and even though all the food is left, most of the alcohol isn't...ha ha...but it was fun and not scary.
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